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Noises by badboysluvr, literature

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Noises

pop-pop-pop goes your BB gun and the heart-shaped balloons above my head bang-bang-bang goes your cannon ball and the fairytale stories by my bed crack-crack-crack goes the bathroom mirror and the light between your lies begins to show snap-snap-snap go the old bed springs and your mouth forming things i don't want to know clang-clang-clang goes the bell above my head and the realization in my heart boom-boom-boom goes the thunder out the door and the suitcase wheels taking away your part

Isolated by badboysluvr, literature

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Isolated

There is clanging and crashing of old lies upon my door and I am shutting truths out in the hopes they may overtake your lies And I am in a mansion in my mind And it is filled with dark carpets And closed doors with cobweb covered chandeliers And glass is raining with the pounding of my heart with the pounding of that door and soon all I hear is crashcrashcrash My walls are shattering My doors are opening My life is wavering and soon I will be alone in the grand foyer of life with no one to blame.help.look to. but myself

The Feeling Of Silence by badboysluvr, literature

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The Feeling Of Silence

I. There are crickets in the yard and flies are in the house and I am eating dinner alone on a kitchen stool maintaining good relations with the voices in our curtains II. There is something lonely sinister even about that empty bed I feel its lack of Love?You?Warmth? as I avoid it with insomnia III. And I am nature or am I nurture and you are loving or are you even here? but what I do for you isn't even for my benefit if it is then I don't do it on purpose and there is love in my actions IV. The sound of water drip drip drip is distrubing as it falls into silence in my mind. our house. the bed. us. and it is filling

Limbo by badboysluvr, literature

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Limbo

I am breaking in a hell called limbo where it rains while it burns and all around is shattered pieces I feel pinpricks with every mention of you and that is everything and each pinprick shatters me are tears and begging not enough? or are we both just too stubborn to come to a conclusion? the yellow roses by my bed are blooming into perfection while the yellow roses in my body are crumbling as ashes in my heart

What We Make by badboysluvr, literature

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What We Make

i. i am made of all porcelain and glass hearts and you are all music notes and kindness and my delicacy is nothing when i smile [i swear, you won't notice it much longer] ii. and with you i am being built up with teardrop pearls and carved gemstones because with you i am.feel.look.act so so beautiful [maybe that's how i am meant to be] iii. your music note presence will dance into my heart my mind my soul my skin until i am spinning around my room gracefully because that is how you play me iv. all the golden dreams of summer can't add up to what you mean to me [in every sense of the term] and when i gaze at you through all th

Playing God by badboysluvr, literature

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Playing God

maybe we all play God because there is none or if there is we idealize him her it them to be just like us [only better] but isn't that just narcissism but narcissus wasn't a God so shouldn't we stop playing and start believing i want to Believe in something new wonderful better understanding optimistic instead of hoping or praying for one i want to Believe it is not something that helps me but it is me maybe we should all stop playing god and start Believing in ourselves self worth self power and we will see who truly can answer prayers

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from the bathroom with hand towels covered in toothpaste and makeup trying to make us more than we are not a disguise but a lie to the bed covered in stains from what you wish you could remember and outside the [sunshine]s and inside slow jazz goes on and on and on like the beat of your heart and the dial tone on the other end and the lonely feelings without any loneliness but one day maybe we will all become our lie not as a lie but as more than we are if only that dial tone would turn to quick jazz and the sun would shine into places that remember a voice and a slow beat of another heart

War in your Head by badboysluvr, literature

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War in your Head

you can watch him walk away as many times as you wish because its only the bad memories that stay with you forever and so like a b-b-b-broken record it wontwontwont stop playing like that song you hate and now its a scene you hate the cinema has suddenly lost its magic to you because war is in the bedroom just like it is outside the fear of planes flying overhead the rrrrrrumble as the pass and circlecirclecircle about your head just like his words and that scene and the feelings you had that bring sickness not unlike PTSD But you know that you cannot reject his pleas his cries his treaties and you know after this it will not ha

turning by badboysluvr, literature

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turning

everything will be okay you remember when you listened to yourself when you told yourself the truth when the aches weren't all over and your head wasn't so lightheavysomethingswrong and always always you didn't let them see you cry because the world turns and people turn with it around around around and suddenly they have their backs to you and did you expect anymore ? and its only a matter of time before the world starts turning again (did you always expect for it to be stuck here in a place of loveliespainjoyhappiness a place you didn't feel real?) it will all turn around soon everything is going to be o....

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badboysluvr

Nov 16, 2009

i'll follow you until you love me

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So how was everyone's Halloween? I broke up with my boy of almost 6 months. I dumped his lame ass because I was sick of being ignored, used and bullshitted :) I'm over it and am now with a new guy who I adore. And who actually treats me right. We were friends and so it's a good relationship. And he asked me out in an incredible way!!! So how is everyone? I haven't updated anything ion a bit but I still wanna see how you guys are doing :) {{"I NEED TO GET BACK IN THE KITCHEN!!"}}

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badboysluvr

Oct 24, 2009

BOOOOOOOM

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Finally making a dent in the deviations that have piled up as two very good friends play Gears....which I fail at and am therefore sitting out on :D We played DOA and I kicked ass though and maybe later we'll play Left 4 Dead. I am so cool. I hope everyone is doing well. It's gorgeous where I live and we went hiking for a field trip today and saw some gorgeous scenery and trees. I <3 fall. And Halloween is coming up so I'm super excited! All my friends and I are going to be Disney characters [I'm sleeping beauty :)] [i hate Macs and I am currently using one D: noooooez] {{"HT X! HIT X! YEAAAAAAAH" "OH GOD NOEZ!"}}

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badboysluvr

Oct 13, 2009

we go together!!!!!

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Been playing DOA4,Plants Vs. Zombies, Little Big Planet, biking, watching old cartoons, and being a mobster all weekend with friends :) For prom committee we had a 'progressive dinner' where we went to 3 different houses for food all together. PC put on one of those dinner plays so we all knew the plot of our mobster murder mystery and everyone had to guess. I played the Don's girlfriend who has an affair with his brother and is actually a government agent undercover. oh yeah. it was hilarious at on point the brother and I are supposed to FLIRT and go off together but the guy and I did a completely bombing impromptu makeout scene in front